Feeling Through Letting Go...to Receive Anew

In the spirit of giving, in order to receive something new, expansive & healing for yourself and the collective…

What is one thing (it may be a big thing!) you can let go of in order to receive anew? How do you let go with intention and make a conscious shift to embody a truer version of yourself?

As you’ve probably heard:

Weeds need to be cut in order for flowers to bloom. 

Your old story no longer aligns with your beliefs/truth.

Your gut instincts “it’s time to let go and move in a different direction.”

How do you let go with intention, consciously making an important shift within? 

Sometimes I sit in easy pose, close my eyes and massage my feet. I connect with the visceral energy through what I stand upon, value, honor, and what I am devoted to. I wait to feel/hear the message of my heart-mind.

THE PRACTICE:

1. Begin with gratitude & acceptance of what is, what you have, where you are presently.

2. Ask yourself, how do I want to feel on a regular basis in my body/mind/spirit?

3. What no longer aligns with feeling this way? (You probably already know what it is, as it would have shown up in relationship to yourself/others this past year.)

4. Feel into the subtleties - this may come through a physical sensation and not an emotion. How does this feel different to an old way of thinking or relating to yourself?

5. Now thank your old joys and haunts for keeping you feeling safe and supported. Thank yourself for the growth & security it offered you.

6. Let it go with the intention of allowing something new which aligns with your purpose & value - that which will bring you more joy for who you are now becoming.

7. Feel into this space of expansion on the horizon, one full of gratitude & abundance.

*It’s not about what it looks like - that you will not know.

The most important thing is stepping into how you want to feel. The more you do this, you will embody your truth, authenticity and all of who you are.

This is EMBODIED PRESENCE.

You're ready to be seen.

Hi Dear Ones,

It has been another tough month, but we’re still here. Today, I feel hopeful. Although, I am listening to the voices of the collective and dreaming images from our collective unconscious. Our hearts are tender. I sense hiding/pushing away any vulnerabilities. This is reflected in the anger, resentment, frustration, rage even, from feeling unheard, unprotected, and helpless. There is anxiety and fear of what the future will hold.

How can an individual hold this alone? You can’t.

There is still so much work to do. There is healing and growth that is needed within ourselves and within our communities. Between the joys or grievances - we are now in a space of “what to do next?” or “the fight is not over”. I believe, the “Other” needs to be heard. There is a divide amongst us. In order to bridge our differences, as in any relationship, we have to work on ourselves first.

How can I hear someone else, if I cannot hear/see my own voices/ego/shadow?

What can I do to listen more and relate to the Other? (I ask this in relation to my inner self as well as external relationships.)

What could be preventing me from hearing the Other and compassionately seeing them?

How can I show up in order to listen more fully, wholeheartedly?

Despite our fears - the action is simple. We embrace what is, through Embodied Presence. This is where you begin - through feeling. First, feel into what the body is holding, move beyond thinking. Slow everything down in order to become aware of the layers upon layers that are may be blocking the deepest, most valuable feelings within. It’s a shedding process. Simple, devoted actions become daily, sacred rituals. This will create long lasting change/transformation.

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Blessings to You & Your Loved Ones,

Angela

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The Inner Growth Blueprint is the path to reclaiming your intuition and developing a sacred way of living, bringing you back into your power, wholeness and well-being.  By listening within and honoring your truth, you can sense into what no one else can, making conscious decisions with more clarity, ease and grace, creating a healthy environment for your continuous growth and success.

The Inner Growth Blueprint inspires inner growth through the support of sacred counsel.  As your intuitive support coach, I inspire you to step into the unknown, feel into what you’re facing and guide you to the best plan of action for the situation.  Making choices whether grand or small, we have to make them. 

Inner growth is choosing direction in life, it is (re)defining yourself, your identity, your sense of purpose and it is making challenging decisions.  We have to navigate, negotiate, collaborate, communicate, constantly.  Potentially profound growth can come during the darkest of times.  These are all times when we need to show up and stand in our power of inner knowing, our intuition and instincts.

My experiences have taught me that we can replenish the spirit and restore the feminine but only with the support of our allies.  The Inner Growth Blueprint developed organically through my own search for clarity and spiritual growth and continued to develop as I worked with others struggling through similar circumstances.  This transformative journey began in 2008, when I discovered the power of my dreams and creativity.  I looked to my collaborators and elders, connecting with members of my tribe who took the time to reflect and share in these inner growth processes.  Finding your support team is necessary for times of change, healing and growth.  Your cosmic army will be there when you are ready.

The majority of my life was spent overcoming the chaos and trauma of my childhood, leaving me searching for meaning and traversing radical transitions while healing endless heartaches from loss and break-ups, emotional imbalances, lack of energy, depression, fear and anxiety.  In breaking through unconscious beliefs that I could never be successful or loved by someone good, I cleared obstructions that prevented me from loving myself and others.  I learned how to set boundaries in order to safely express myself and I have grown to believe in my worth and know that my vision and inspiration is valuable. 

Through my years as an artist, creative collaborator, yogi, dream reader and really good friend, my holistic approach to living became all the things which supported me: dialogue & communication, movement & embodiment, yoga & meditation, prayer and ritual, honoring nature, creativity, dream reading, interpreting signs & symbols and sharing resources.  

The intuitive support coaching I offer as part of your counsel is in developing your Blueprint and working with the tools to support you in becoming grounded in your body and daily life, balanced in your emotions, build strength and confidence, navigate transitions, overcome fears, break through unconscious beliefs, hold space to grieve loss, and the action steps to build a foundation within of gratitude, love, joy, and wholeness. 

Namaste,

Angela

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become one with the moon

Thank you Rainbow Love App for the beautiful art to design & play with!

On June 16, 2011, I called this dream “THE MOON”

I was told I need to get as much light from the moon as possible. I go in this small outdoor patio, white, with chairs to sit on (feels like old round chairs at a bowling alley). My sister, Amie comes in with a friend, Brian. I want to sit on his lap in order to get the best light. When we get in, I don’t need Brian because the chairs are high enough. It is the biggest-brightest setting moon I have ever seen.

Its so big and so close. Just outside these windows my back is faced to see, just at the horizon of the ocean is this moon which looks like the setting sun and I am soaking it all in. This is what I am supposed to do.

Walking into a spa – on a bridge – following a woman who knows and is telling me the science behind this moon in particular and why it is so powerful, where its from. She gets side tracked as we walk in on ice. Little mounds of ice through the hall and into the spa. Through overweight naked women. I’m leading the woman to show her where the bathrooms, changing rooms and sauna are. Though there is ice, there is steam. Especially coming off the large pool up the steps to the right. We are also being followed by a group of women. I get back to asking her about the story.

Now the moon is setting and I’m outside, closer to the water. I look up and I see more moons. One is a crescent moon. Another male friend walks out towards the still large full moon setting. He is walking on a dock. I can’t see where it ends, but he’s going. He has his shirt off. I feel like, he’s not coming back this time.

In honor of our recent power-full moon, I am peculiarly feeling into this dream, remembering the work I did with it at the time, how many moons later I realized this dream was a premonition or precognitive dream and that the dream and the moon, still resonates and is guiding me to more insight.

A dream that keeps giving…I think I will reflect on this dream every full moon because there is so much to share and learn from it - it has been giving to me for over six years! As I go back through my journal from June 2011, I realize I don’t have a lot of entries of my waking life. I was very busy at the time directing a play in Los Angeles. It was a a new start of a play in development, “Box, Window, Door” that was opening soon at the Hollywood Fringe. I was working intensely and consistently with my dreams with dreamworker and Shaman Chris Doggett through the use of Embodied Imagination – a process based in alchemy developed by Robert Bosnak. (EI will be discussed more in depth in future posts). But there are no entries of how I was feeling, about anything.

I think about this now as I sit in feeling and realize how being in feeling has dramatically shifted who I am, the actions I take and how I treat others. My perception of myself and everything around me has changed, including how I feel about the future. We all have the power to manifest and its through feeling – how does a thought make you feel?  Living through feeling is a new way to be! It is becoming conscious of who you are (inside). We can get all the information we need from within, if we listen…how does that thought make you feel? If it makes you nervous, I completely understand. I was anxious to start writing this.

When I worked this dream through Embodied Imagination, I became the moon or what the moon feels like inside of me. It was:

cool, spinning, giving, floating, contained power, happiness of giving light, higher consciousness, sponginess, tempurpedic, resilient – takes an impression, feels one with earth and living with it – connected to

I would meditate with this composite points of feeling(s) throughout your body that are realized through becoming the symbols/places/people in a dream, in this sort of body graph of feeling and let it do its healing and I would wait for a new dream.  

Then in October 2011, I went to India and studied yoga. I met my Guru and miraculously attracted 50+ people to a full moon meditation that lasted over four nights; the three leading up to the full moon and the night of. I say miraculous because I told no one, it was originally only going to be about three of us – by the end, the rooftop overlooking the Ganges was completely full and we were glistening and feeling into the phrase “become one with the moon”.

I felt what it was like to become one with the moon and it was scary, at the time. I could not feel my own body as I knew it. Its like all my pores opened up and it was cool and there was movement, it felt like flowing water, as if I was floating. What was scary was the loss of feeling contained within my own skin. There was expansion of my cells that were no longer touching yet connected to everything. I felt like I was becoming one with everything and there was no single me anymore. I was losing attachment to my identity.

I was told, “do not be afraid of what your body can do.”

Dreams are based in feeling. You wake up from a dream and you most likely feel something. You know those dreams you can't shake and you live with them all day? That's because we remember them based on how they make us feel. They are living within the body.  The body holds so much more than we know, known and unknown. Do not be afraid of the wisdom within - within the body, spirit, and soul. Do not be afraid of the consciousness beyond the conscious mind.

While working with dreams, there is never one answer and there is always more to discover. Let it unfold and trust in the unknown.

NOTE: Posts may only include part/s of the dream. 

*BOLD TEXT = DREAM IMAGE

*italicized text = interpretation and/or what resonates for the dreamer